Friday Night and I'm staying in with the boyfriend and the dog. And I have no problem with that. We are low on the cash flow but happy! We both really wanted pizza so we got Little Caesar's $5 large and crazy bread. It was delish... and we have left overs for lunch tomorrow. We are now drinking some cheap rum and pepsi. Life is good. I really like being young and my only responsibilities being work and paying bills. It ain't no thang. I don't ever want to take it for granted because I know someday things will be different. I don't need a fancy car, I don't need a fancy place to live, I don't need expensive clothes. I'm happy. Or maybe I'm just happy because I have rum? ha :) There are times when I am happy and sober, I promise! It's just so crazy all the ups and downs of life, I suspect they will never stop. There will always be a crisis, always a drama, it's just how I handle each said thing. I can do it. I can make the best out of a situation, I will do my best!
Right now I am sitting at my computer waiting for the new Lady Gaga video to load and listening to George Michaels.... that's right, Father Figure. Good song. However random. Good music video too. Holy crap I love music so much. I was reading in Runner's World how every 2 or 3 runs you should run without your IPOD. Hell no. Well maybe. But I love listening to music, it makes life so good. I love such a huge range of music... from George Michaels to Lady Gaga, lol. I heard this song recently called "Lifetime" by Better Than Ezra. It was a good story. I love songs that have a story. That's probably why I love country music too.
Now "I Would Walk 500 Miles" just came on, <3 shuffle on my itunes <3 <3 <3
I wish Kelsey would tell me the big news. The suspense is killing me. I hope she knows if she told me I TOTALLY would NOT blog about it although a total of like 4 people read my blog... welll the prescribe I don't know if they even read it, that's just who subscribes. But yea, I wouldn't even tell those 4 people. Well 3 because she is one of the 4. You better text me <3 :)
Running is good/ ok. 5 miles yesterday, was TOUGH. I felt like an old lady after, but that means I worked hard, right? Ugh. I am an old lady. But even those old ladies run and kick ass at half / full marathons, right? For real. There are a ton of old people that beat me, which isn't saying much, but I know old people beat people with penises too. and I don't even have a penis! :)
I know this blog is all over the place but I feel best when buzzed, or after a run. Maybe I should run more and drink less? Probably. It's a transition though. I've been drinking a LITTLE less, but running more for sure. Baby steps :)
"Go Your Own Way" - Fleetwood Mac <3 <3 <3
I joined a March Madness pool and it's going well! But I don't think that many people are in it so even if I DO win, it would probably only be like $50, which equals $40 considering I have to put $10 in. But maybe I'm wrong, maybe there are more people in it than I think. I hope I hope! Because my pics are BA.
I like the chorus of this song "You can go your own way" which there is much more than that line... but that sums it up. You can go your own way and do what you want because this is America damn it and we have freedom! Well, for the most part. But you make your own destiny. No one chooses what you do in your life, it's all up to you. Which is scary but so much more relieving than anything else. Sure, people will influence your life, shit will happen that is out of your control, but you still have the choice in how to react to it. God, so much easier said than done... ugh.
I love music.
Right now it's "Desperately Wanting" by Better Than Ezra... yes I know I mentioned them already but I like this song too. Not sure EXACTLY what it's about... but I think maybe the guy singing remembering young love but then the girl gets depressed and goes into a psych hospital... he's still trying to talk to her through letters, I dunno. And then he's telling her to be strong and "take back your life". That's so true too... no matter what shit happens you can take back your own life. Someone dies, a boyfriend breaks up with you, you lose your job, your car breaks down, you're audited, lol... anything. You have the power.
Ok, I am totally coming off hippy-ish. Maybe it's Ann Arbor wearing off on me, but for real. I'd rather live like this than uptight and thinking that I have to rule the world financially, with power or prestige or recognition. But I so want a bachelor's degree. That sentence right there says that I'm not ready to pursue one.. because I'm saying "a" bachelor's degree, like I don't even care what one. Well I do. But I can't freaking decide on anything. And even though I consider myself an intelligent woman I'm not a disciplined one, so I need FOCUS. And I have none right now. *sigh*.
OH I LOVE MUSIC!
Listen, I know that I'm crazy right now because I'm under the influence but it's really freeing. I can be like this when I'm sober, but it's not as easy, and it's not in a public blog :)
OK, well if you've made it this far congratulations. You know a little bit more of me, which I hope is a good thing?
I gotta check my march madness.... <3 ya.